TRINUM Tarot: the message the deck gave me before coming to life.

Chaos came to visit me...

It wasn’t a coincidence: the deck had something to tell me.

Right at the end of TRINUM Tarot’s production process, everything started falling apart.

I sent the prototype to print with so much excitement. It was supposed to be ready in two weeks. A month went by... and nothing. I was frustrated. Anxious. Trying to control the process, to speed things up.

So, as any tarot reader would (and totally hyped, of course!), I pulled a few cards from my own deck.

What happened to the deck? I asked

The reading went like this:

The first card that came up was the Fire Summoner. A lightning strike. A card that represents an external force that bursts in, messes things up, breaks all plans… and the only thing to do is accept it. Then came the 6 of Air. It felt like it was speaking to all the tasks and directions in motion, each one needing its own time to take shape. Nothing could be rushed.

Not long after, the printing company confirmed that several of their machines had broken down. They told me they were going through "a chaotic moment." (I already knew that 😝)

The cards arrived... but with a message.

When the physical sample finally showed up, it was clear that something was off.

The deck was incomplete.

The sequence of cards

There were 28 cards. Among them:

• 4 copies of the 9 of Earth, a card traditionally linked to ripening and maturity.

• 3 copies each of the following five: 10 of Earth, Earth Keepers, Earth Weaver, Earth Magnifier, and Earth Summoner.

Yes: all from the Earth element.

It was so clear: the 9 shows a labyrinth folded into itself, a dense, tangled structure, with little air. Exactly how I was feeling.The 10 already speaks of expansion, growth in all four directions, and a bit more order. A step forward—but one that needs patience.

And the Earth allies told me: weave networks, hold space, amplify, trust what’s invisible. The moment will come, but not just yet. Keep working on it.

As if that wasn’t enough, there were 10 completely blank cards. Empty spaces representing something not yet ready to be revealed...

Listening to what is being born

The deck was speaking to me: the repeated cards, the blank ones, the missing ones. It was all showing me that the process wasn’t done yet. That I was trying to rush time. But something still needed to ripen.

That’s when it hit me:

I am the one creating this, with my timing, my decisions. So why was I rushing like I had to meet someone else’s deadline? Was I unknowingly falling into the capitalist mindset of fast, non-stop production—even in such a personal project?

Yeah, maybe a bit 🙂‍↕️

So, through delays and mistakes, I ended up receiving one of the most important messages of the whole process:

✨ TRINUM Tarot has its own rhythm. And it’s not something I can force.

That’s when I relaxed. (A bit, at least 😅)

After the storm...

The correct deck finally arrived, and everything started falling into place.

We did the photoshoot, polished some details, and now everything is flowing...

On August 2nd, the moment finally arrives: TRINUM Tarot launches on Kickstarter.

You can access the link here to be the first to know when it goes live.

I’m happy, nervous, excited, and deeply grateful.

I wanted to share this story because so often we only see the final result from the outside. The beautiful, polished, edited version. But behind it, there are always real processes—full of mistakes, frustration, chaos, signs, and learning.

Thanks for being here, for reading, for walking this path with me.

Felicitas Sidders

TRINUM